Mirror Mirror

Living life can go to two different extremes.

You can just do without a thought. Be in the moment and only the moment, never contemplate just act.

The other extreme is termed hyper-reflection. The past is your home. You relive every moment and it's as if you are in between two mirrors seeing yourself going on endlessly.

Well, this is what the existentialist Robert Camus believed. I think it carries some validity.

I am more on the hyper-reflective side at this point. It's kind of dangerous. Looking into the past too much can force you to relive things and forget what is really going on in your life.

Things are pretty fantastic for me right now and I'm doing well. For some reason I have decided to look back into one of the most unhealthy relationships I have ever had and reminisce. I really shouldn't. Neither of us were good for the other.

I guess what I am getting at is that I need to start living in the moment more. Granted, being holed up in my sister's apartment for the week watching movies is not what I'd call living. When I get back to Missoula, I've only got 5 weeks left. I really need to make the best of it.

I have never had such a great group of friends that I trust and care for so much. I need to savor that while I have it and store it up for the long summer of work at Target and a severely stunted social life.

On another note. I have watched eight movies since being here.

Day 1:
1. Singin' in the Rain
2. Lilo and Stitch
3. Can't Hardly Wait
Day 2:
4. Grosse Point Blank
5. Ella Enchanted
6. Say Anything
7. Mean Girls
8. Aeon Flux

Yeah, that's a lot of movies. The I had seen all of these movies before excluding Say Anything. I was very impressed. It was a great love story and very genuine. The part I liked the most is that is didn't seem like the usual interchangeable romance. I get so sick of new movies and how they all follow such a formulaic pattern. I loved that uniqueness of John Cusack's character, along with his costars.