Thursday, March 01, 2007

Speech & Debate

All good things must come to end. One of the most enjoyable activities of my high school career has officially come to an end.

You know that you are a geek when you are sad to be done with traveling great distances, dressing in a suit, and giving speeches on a weekend. That's the geek I'm proud to be.

It kills me how little respect the Speech and Debate team gets at my school. Most people don't even know what we do let alone if what we do is really a high school curricular activity. In many ways, Speech and Debate is harder than a lot of sports. What my fellow competitors and I travel to do every weekend is one of the highest ranked phobias of our country. Granted, most of us don't have to test our physical being aside from staying awake due to little sleep the night before and keep our vocal cords in tip-top shape, but we do work hard.

I improved greatly over the past four years. I went from a scatter-brained girl who couldn't talk for three minutes, to a considerable threat to most of my competition. I was the 7th place finalist in Impromptu Speaking this year, and I am happy to say I earned it. I wasn't gifted with my talent, I had to work at it and hone it.

I know that sounds excruciatingly arrogant, but I believe it's true and feel no shame in proclaiming this achievement.

I was awarded with the Most Inspirational Speaker Award and the Bison Leadership Award. Both of those made my little heart melt. The first was voted on by my teammates and the latter was chosen by my coaches. I feel so honored that both parties considered me the right choice for the awards I was given.

Tonight has been bittersweet, but far more sweet than bitter.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Listen, To the song here in my heart A melody I start But can't complete
Listen, to the sound from deep within It's only beginning To find release
Oh, the time has come
for my dreams to be heard They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all cause you won't
Listen....
Listen,
I am alone at a crossroads I'm not at home, in my own home And I've tried and tried To say whats on my mind You should have known
Oh, Now I'm done believin you
You don't know what I'm feelin
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..
You should have listened There is someone here inside Someone I'd thought had died So long ago
Ohh I'm free now and my dreams will be heard They will not be pushed aside or turned Into your own All cause you won't
Listen...
I don't know where I belong But i'll be movin on If you don't....
If you won't....
LISTEN!!!... To the song here in my heart A melody I start
But I will complete Oh, Now i'm done believin you You dont know what I'm feelin I'm more than what, you made of me I followed the voice, you think you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own.. my own

this is a song from the Musical Dreamgirls and I thought it could help you figure out that what you do to Kathleen is killing her. It's not fair and you shouldn't treat her like crap. Figure out what ever it is you want from her; a friend or someone to suck the life out of. And then let her get on. She has sacrificed everything from friendships to possible love for you and you should try to understand that putting up with negativity like you spout everyday is hard for anyone and you're lucky Kathleen has stayed around for as long as she has. Think about it. What would an "insperational" or "leadership" person do? Live up to the titles you so adamently coveted.--sarah