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College
I'm sick of that word, that idea, that future, that question. If I could, I would just forget how to read and join the circus (forgetting how to read would just make it more interesting, I suppose).
I'm assuming a lot of this hate is from my fear of college. Will I do well? Is U. of M. the right choice? What do I want to do with my life?
Another reason for the hatred is over saturation. I hear about college more every year, and I heard about it quite enough my Freshman year. And considering an increase in its discussion every year, I have met my tolerance.
I wish it was all over, I was in college, and in the swing of things there.
Personality Traits
I'm at a crossroads. To forgive or not to forgive. Forget and move on or remember and become even more bitter.
Maybe I just need to let go of the hurt I have inside me. For some reason I still feel that that is not an option. Considering a majority of this hurt has not been apologized for, I don't feel it fair that I have to forgive and forget things that people have done when they either don't know or care about how much they have hurt me.
Maybe I take things too personally. Maybe I see things as mean or as an insult when they are just meant to be a joke and not intended to hurt me.
I used to forgive too much, allowing people to walk all over me. I'm just worried that if I forgive someone then I'll fall back into that cycle of giving those people the ability to make my life hell because I become understanding again.
Music Snobbery
I love various forms of music. Granted, not every form by far and some genres are beyond me ever loving. I have been labeled by certain individuals as a music snob. They claim that my distaste for much of the Top 40 is due to my music snobbery. Is it bad to expect more? Insult a band because I find their music terrible? Avoid the Top 40 station because of the majority of the music they play?
I don't really consider myself a music snob, because the reason I hate some bands or artists is the reason I love another. I'm ridiculously inconsistent and don't pick apart the music I listen. I will give something a listen before dismissing it, but I know what I like and don't like.
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I am done for now . . .
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3 comments:
What things in life are easy to acheive? College, like most obsticles isn't going to be any fun if it was so easy to deal with. If you could blow it off just like high school, nothing will ever change.
Back at a crossroad huh? I've said it before and I'll say it again, don't whine, change. Not everyone is right out to hurt you. Giving people a chance to be human isn't asking too much from a person who probably makes mistakes with her friends all the time.
Music snobbery is not defined by what you like to listen to. Like every other form of snobbery, it is defined by your reactions to other tastes. Say you have a friend who really, deep down LOVES the All-Americn-Rejects. And then she has to hide this from you, not buy their CD and always change the station when they're on the raido. Sometimes those who ask the world for tolerance have the hardest time living up to it.
Ok, I've left you two comments now and so I've decided that it's not fair that I know who you are and you don't know me. im sarah4254@blogspot.com. Check it out if you want to. I just didn't think it was right.
So, I see you've met Sarah?
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